Sunday, May 24th 2020

all motivation has left my body

It’s really hard to find the motivation for anything right now. The past two weeks have been something else entirely. I feel like I have been holding my breath for a very long time.

Two weeks ago I moved. I was getting tired of renting and really wanted a home of my own. Moving is such a draining ordeal. It took two trips with a moving truck to get everything out of the old place and into the new house. And as much fun as it is to move in general, I was moving during a global pandemic. My family was able to come and help myself and my platonic life partner move into the new house, but we all had to wear masks and keep distance when possible. It was interesting.

Because of the pandemic we have not been able to go into stores and pick out furniture. So the house is still not put together as we are waiting for items to arrive. We have had little hiccups and bumps in the road, but we were making the most of the situation.

Then a torrential downpour hit mid-Michigan and two dams broke. During the rain on Monday, I went down into the basement and noticed the carpet was wet. I realized there was water coming in from one of the basement windows. The window well is too low and it was allowing all this water to build up against the window and it was flowing in. After several frantic calls to local hardware stores I was able to get my hands on eight 60 lb. sandbags to stop the water from coming in. We set up a dehumidifier and used a shop vac to try and dry the carpet as much as we could.

Then on Tuesday, the dams broke. I received 10 emergency alerts on my phone. One of them indicated that my parents needed to evacuate as soon as possible. My parents and their dog Lucy stayed with us for two nights. The whole situation was very frightening. We didn’t know if their house would still be there when they would be allowed to return. Luckily, it was.

Somehow, they only had minimal water damage done to the garage. They were very lucky. A lot of others in the area have lost everything.

It’s been a very trying two weeks. And while I did try to tell myself that it was okay if I wasn’t super productive this weekend, it’s hard to allow myself to feel this way. But I do. I don’t want to do anything. I don’t feel like reading, or watching YouTube or getting things done around the house. I don’t even feel like playing Animal Crossing. What I would like to do, is power-down. I would like to shut my brain off. I think I need more sleep.

Saturday, May 23rd 2020

The Giver

The GiverThe Giver (The Giver, #1) by Lois Lowry
Published by Ember on January 24th 2006
Pages: 208

Twelve-year-old Jonas lives in a seemingly ideal world. Not until he is given his life assignment as the Receiver does he begin to understand the dark secrets behind this fragile community.

I decided not to change my star rating of this book. I was conflicted about it, but I think nostalgia played a part. I did really enjoy re-reading this book. I found myself more frustrated this time by the ending though. However, I have never read the rest of the series, so that might be my fault. I still really enjoyed the message of this book and think it should be a required read for all. In a lot of ways, it is timeless.


Monday, May 11th 2020

Believathon 2020 tbr

Read the First Book in a Series: A Place Called Perfect by Helena Duggan
Read a Book Featuring a Family Relationship: The House with Chicken Legs by Sophie Anderson
Read a Book Featuring a Female Bond: A Pinch of Magic by Michelle Harrison
Sci-fi Book or a Book Related to Space: The Giver by Lois Lowry
Next Book in a Series: The Trouble with Perfect by Helena Duggan

Wednesday, May 6th 2020

i bought a house!

I did a thing! I bought my first house! And I don’t just mean in Animal Crossing. I will be making a post soon about my plans for this blog and a YouTube channel. Exciting change is coming!

Sunday, May 3rd 2020


This is a very tentative TBR as I am moving this month.

  • Get a Life, Chloe Brown by Talia Hibbert
  • The Bride Test by Helen Hoang
  • The Right Swipe by Alisha Rai
  • Yes No Maybe So by Becky Albertalli & Aisha Saeed
  • Infinity Son by Adam Silvera


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