Saturday, October 17th 2020

being a homeowner

Being a homeowner has been challenging and rewarding in ways I wasn’t necessarily expecting. There have been a few times I have completely lost my shit in frustration, but there have also been times where I have been really proud of myself for fixing something on my own.

I had a minor freak-out the first night living in my new house because the pilot light on the fireplace had gone out and I didn’t know there the gas light was downstairs to turn it off. I did figure it out but there was a moment where I questioned why I bought a house. I was so used to calling a landlord when there was a problem.

However, there have also been moments of triumph. I am very lucky because the previous owners left all the manuals to everything in the house. There have been a few times now where I have been able to use the manuals left behind to troubleshoot and figure out issues.

Instead of focusing on the things I don’t know about homeownership or the times I got frustrated, I try to think of the things I have accomplished. I make sure to give myself praise and to feel good about figuring things out. I make an effort to be proud of myself.

Friday, April 10th 2020

during these times

I spent some time updating my love page today and that made me think of all the videos I can just watch over and over again during these trying times.

a tour of my plants – Jenna Marbles
i made the tiktok whipped coffee – Julien Solomita
corn on the cob but instead of the corn bone it’s a hotdog – Jenna Marbles
all the best vines – spaydthesuperhero
i read fifty shades darker and this is a rant review – paperbackdreams
single girl tries the 100 baby challenge season 1 marathon | sims 4 – BuzzFeed Multiplayer
a guide to positive panic playlist – Leena Norms
oxygen not included playlist – Markiplier

Saturday, March 21st 2020


My card pull for the year 2020 was the Strength card and I am starting to understand why. The amount of anxiety and stress I have been dealing with this year is the most I have in my life so far I think. Not only have I been dealing with the stress around my most recent diagnosis and health, but also the stress of trying to buy my first home. And now, COVID-19.

For someone who is already a homebody and an introvert, having a lock-in isn’t such a big deal for the most part. It does, however, make me realize just how many errands I run, even if I don’t really interact with many people. It’s not easy right now to just run to the store to grab cookies, or pop into the library to grab a book on hold.

This virus has completely changed everyone’s way of life and day-to-day. I am now working from home every day. My weekly therapy sessions are now done online through a teleconferencing service. All of my work meetings are through WebEx or Zoom. All of the events I was hosting, including an Ostara ritual, were canceled.

When I have not been working I have been trying to focus on self-care snd also being somewhat creative. I have been playing some games online with friends while using Skype to hang out. Stardew Valley is our game of choice. The new Animal Crossing game arrived yesterday. I have been participating in creative lock-ins hosted by Leena Norms using the Pomodoro Technique to get some writing done. I have been using it to write in my journal, write some blog posts and get some poetry writing done. So if anything, I think self-isolation will be the perfect time to try and revive my blog.

Tuesday, July 23rd 2019

Captive Prince

Captive PrinceCaptive Prince (Captive Prince, #1) by C.S. Pacat
Published by Berkley on April 7th 2015
Pages: 270

Damen is a warrior hero to his people, and the rightful heir to the throne of Akielos. But when his half brother seizes power, Damen is captured, stripped of his identity, and sent to serve the prince of an enemy nation as a pleasure slave.

Beautiful, manipulative, and deadly, his new master, Prince Laurent, epitomizes the worst of the court at Vere. But in the lethal political web of the Veretian court, nothing is as it seems, and when Damen finds himself caught up in a play for the throne, he must work together with Laurent to survive and save his country.

For Damen, there is just one rule: never, ever reveal his true identity. Because the one man Damen needs is the one man who has more reason to hate him than anyone else…

There were many times while reading this book that I was pretty sure I was going to put it down and never pick it back up again. TW for pedophilia, rape, abuse, etc. First off, this book is not listed in the correct genre. My copy states romance on the back and I don’t know what part of this is supposed to be romance. You can’t convince me that a relationship based on abuse, sexual and otherwise is a slow burn.

I gave it two stars instead of one simply for the fact that I have the second book in this series and I am probably going to read it. Why? Because I want to see if this somehow…someway redeems this trilogy. Because as it stands right now, just reading the first one, it makes me question the writer’s mind.


Tuesday, December 4th 2018

The Night Circus

The Night Circus four-stars

The circus arrives without warning. No announcements precede it. It is simply there, when yesterday it was not. Within the black-and-white striped canvas tents is an utterly unique experience full of breathtaking amazements. It is called Le Cirque des Rêves, and it is only open at night.

But behind the scenes, a fierce competition is underway—a duel between two young magicians, Celia and Marco, who have been trained since childhood expressly for this purpose by their mercurial instructors. Unbeknownst to them, this is a game in which only one can be left standing, and the circus is but the stage for a remarkable battle of imagination and will. Despite themselves, however, Celia and Marco tumble headfirst into love—a deep, magical love that makes the lights flicker and the room grow warm whenever they so much as brush hands.

True love or not, the game must play out, and the fates of everyone involved, from the cast of extraordinary circus performers to the patrons, hang in the balance, suspended as precariously as the daring acrobats overhead.

Written in rich, seductive prose, this spell-casting novel is a feast for the senses and the heart.

Why did it take me so long to read this book?!

This book is stunning. I have a hardcopy of this book but when I found out that Jim Dale narrated the audiobook, there was no question that I needed it.

There are so many people who love this book and I think maybe that is what put me off of reading it for so long. I was scared I would hate it. But of course, that did not happen. The Night Circus is a beautiful story. And even though I predicted where certain relationships were headed, it was not the type of predictability that takes away from the story.

I enjoyed all of the characters. All of the characters stories were nicely woven together and I loved learning about each of them. No character was left behind. All of them were fleshed out and all of their backgrounds were colorful and interesting.

The only reason I cannot give this book 5 stars is due to the main relationship not being more front and center. Typically I enjoy books where the romantic element is not the focus, but for this story, while I enjoyed all the friendships and relationships between all of the characters, I really wanted more from the romantic relationship between the two main characters.