Wednesday, November 4th 2020

GirlTheory is 15 years old

With everything going on this year, it wasn’t until I was brainstorming ideas for this site a few weeks ago that I realized I have had this website for 15 years. This website has gone through a lot of changes over the years. Blogs don’t really seem to be as big of deal or as popular as they were when I first bought this website, but I just feel like I will never let this site go.

In hindsight, I really wish I would have kept a record of all the changes that this website has gone through, but I did not and many, many posts have been deleted over the years. In fact, I think at one point I did a completely uninstall and re-install of WordPress, thus losing all my old posts and writings.

As much as I love watching YouTube, and it would probably gain me more an audience to have a YouTube channel, I just cannot do it. I hate recording myself and therefore, hate editing videos of myself. So for now, I will stick with this website.

In it’s current iteration, this website is part blog, part journal, part book log, and part magickal entries. It is always a work in progress.

Thursday, August 15th 2019

Perfection

Perfection is an insurmountable mountain I feel I must conquer in order to prove my worth. It causes anxiety-inducing, heart-stopping, soul-crushing doubt in my mind. If I cannot create perfection, then I should not even start to create.

I have many blank notebooks, planners, journals, sketch pads. I have many recorded videos never edited and/or never uploaded. I have half-written poems, stories, ideas. I have many lists without a single thing checked off.

Purchasing craft items/materials and actually crafting are two very separate hobbies. I collect. I do not create.

There is something blocking my path. It is out of focus and hard to see. But when I squint and it becomes less blurred, I can see that it is me.