Saturday, March 21st 2020

Strength

My card pull for the year 2020 was the Strength card and I am starting to understand why. The amount of anxiety and stress I have been dealing with this year is the most I have in my life so far I think. Not only have I been dealing with the stress around my most recent diagnosis and health, but also the stress of trying to buy my first home. And now, COVID-19.

For someone who is already a homebody and an introvert, having a lock-in isn’t such a big deal for the most part. It does, however, make me realize just how many errands I run, even if I don’t really interact with many people. It’s not easy right now to just run to the store to grab cookies, or pop into the library to grab a book on hold.

This virus has completely changed everyone’s way of life and day-to-day. I am now working from home every day. My weekly therapy sessions are now done online through a teleconferencing service. All of my work meetings are through WebEx or Zoom. All of the events I was hosting, including an Ostara ritual, were canceled.

When I have not been working I have been trying to focus on self-care snd also being somewhat creative. I have been playing some games online with friends while using Skype to hang out. Stardew Valley is our game of choice. The new Animal Crossing game arrived yesterday. I have been participating in creative lock-ins hosted by Leena Norms using the Pomodoro Technique to get some writing done. I have been using it to write in my journal, write some blog posts and get some poetry writing done. So if anything, I think self-isolation will be the perfect time to try and revive my blog.

Saturday, November 23rd 2019

lost

I am feeling a bit lost. I am not sure what I meant to be doing. I am not sure what would bring me contentment.

Lost. Missing. Failed. Abandoned. Gone.

Thursday, September 12th 2019

shadow work

25 Heavy-Duty Shadow Work Journal Prompts.

Saturday, September 7th 2019

Self-care

Whatever that means. All I know is that I am not good at it. And when I try to be deliberate about self-care or self-care routines, I feel like it doesn’t really do anything for me.

I’ve been hearing the term a lot because of this month. Self-care September or Self-love September. I try not to roll my eyes when I hear the term. I know it matters. It’s just all the suggestions of what to do or what routines to start never work for me.

I get too annoyed or bored.

The only self-care activity I can think that I do is when I take time to read. But honestly, it is getting harder and harder to find the time.

Monday, September 2nd 2019

morning walk