I am trying to light a fire under my own crafty ass. I’ve been following quite a few mixed media crafters on YouTube. And I have been getting inspired. So I have started making an altered mixed media embroidery hoop.
So far I have put the fabric in the hoop and prepared it using matte medium and gesso. I have picked out some of the metal pieces, flowers and paper I am going to be using. I plan on posting updates as I work on it. I am not stressing myself out and trying to finish the project all in one sitting. I am working on it at my own pace.
I wanted to write something profound about the Supreme Court’s decision yesterday. But all I can say is that I am very happy. It felt like I would never see this in my lifetime. A truly historical moment that effects myself and so many others. I am just over-joyed.
Everywhere I look, I am looking at a screen. Computer, television, phone and e-reader. It’s getting ridiculous. I catch myself looking at two screens. Mostly the television and my phone. And then I wonder why I am getting headaches.
There comes a point where I get tired of looking at screens. I just want to escape some times. Just sit outside and watch the animals or the wind shake the trees. Just anything other than a screen.
I just want to snap out of the digital trance.
A co-worker and I were discussing the death of real dating. We seem to come from the generation that decided they were not going to date anymore but instead “go out” with someone. Relationships are not official until they are Facebook official. My co-worker was talking about her frustration with a guy she was seeing. They spent a lot of time sitting out the couch watching Game of Thrones. He had commitment issues and she wanted to know where the relationship was headed. They are no longer together. Part of her frustration was not being able to define their relationship. Were they “going out”? She didn’t feel like they were “dating”.
I know that this is 2015, but I don’t think there is anything wrong with wanting to be wooed. If someone wants to “go out” with me, they have to take me out. On a real date. Like, dinner. When did people stop dating and just start hanging out? I understand that it works for some people. But I want to be swept off my feet. I want a nice gesture of going out to dinner and getting to know the other person over a meal. I want good conversation. I don’t just want to “hang out” on someone’s couch and watch television.
Reasons that I have struggled to structure my blog is that I feel like I do not fit in a category. There are mommy bloggers and lifestyle bloggers and photography bloggers and head-over-heels-in-love bloggers. And I am not any of those. I suppose I am a twenty-something blogger, but only for a few more months. I just made a post about the topics I want to write about on this blog and I am already questioning it. I had chosen; crafts, feminism, books, planning and photography. And of course after doing that, now I don’t want to write about any of those topics.
I am not a mommy, so I cannot blog about that. I have two cats, but that would annoy everyone and myself if I wrote about or posted many many many photos of my cats. I have a lifestyle, but not one I could really blog about. I am not into makeup or clothes. My “lifestyle” is very laid back. I am not as passionate about photography as I used to be. I mostly take photos with my phone now, like everyone else. And I am not seeing anyone. No love life to speak of.
I am a passionate feminist, but I feel a little out of loop writing about feminism. However, my blog name is girltheory. Hmmm. I am slightly obsessed with planning these days. I am in love with my Erin Condren planner. I will always be an avid reader. I want to become more spiritual and sort of start a spiritual journey.
I guess my biggest problem is that I am trying to find my passion. I am trying to narrow down my interests. And lately I have just been feeling so out of sorts.
Maybe it’s time to go back to my roots, if you will.
When I was a crazy coupon lady I would donate my expired coupons to military families overseas because they could use them 6 months past the expiration date. I had a base in Belgium that I sent my coupons to. However, it’s been almost a year since I gave up the crazy coupon lady lifestyle. I still use coupons, but I don’t buy multiple papers a week and organize all my coupons in the three ring binder. The main reason I don’t do it anymore is being Kroger stopped coupon-matching.
I volunteer quite a bit in my local community, offering my services to non-profits in the area. However, there was something about sending coupons that I really liked. The idea of helping out people far away. Something about possibly making an impact even outside of my community. My room-mate told me about the Malawi Project. I had asked her one day if she needed some pill bottles to use as geocaching bottles. She said no, but that I could donate them.
So today I cleaned all my old pill bottles that I had lying around, put them in a bubble wrap bag and put them in a box to ship out tomorrow. Volunteering doesn’t mean you have to go out and do manual labor. It doesn’t mean you have to write a grant. Sometimes writing letters, signing petitions, and mailing or bringing in goods that an organization needs is enough. I encourage everyone to find an organization to help out. It can be so unbelievably rewarding.